Back To My Own Life

[Verse] Everyone around me seems to be getting married Some people are moving in, starting a new life Some are choosing curtains, some are changing routines Some are saying their last goodbyes Then there’s those at the end of life Dying, cremated or buried And here I am in evening traffic Voice typing words that might save me Starting my postgraduate life Starting a master’s while turning twenty-five Still trying to learn what peace feels like When I’m not just trying to survive [Pre Chorus] I still live with my family But that’s normal in my country I pay some of the bills Making videos round the Klang Valley Still, at red lights, I ask quietly Am I good enough? Isn’t life supposed to be more tough? Maybe I only ask ’Cause earlier on, it got really rough [Chorus] But I’m not late, I’m alive I made it back to my own life I was offline, half-light Now I’m reading all the road signs I’m not behind, I’m in time Twenty-five is still a starting line All my life was story Now I’m writing it exact Catchy, relatable But my exact life story Look at that I’m not late, I’m alive [Verse] Twenty-seven months felt like twenty-seven years Getting beaten up, getting hurt But that was only one bad chapter In a whole long season of worse From twenty-five November, twenty-one To third of August, twenty-five I was given wrong labels and wrong pills Trying to keep my spark alive And stimulants could light the room But they never lit me up Eleven January twenty six, I let go And slowly started coming free [Pre Chorus] I still live with my family But that’s normal in my country I pay some of the bills Making videos round the Klang Valley And tonight at eleven twenty-six June eleven opened its eyes Six months out of the static I think I’m finally online [Chorus] But I’m not late, I’m alive I made it back to my own life I was offline, half-light Now I’m reading all the road signs I’m not behind, I’m in time Twenty-five is still a starting line All my life was story Now I’m writing it exact Catchy, relatable But my exact life story Look at that I’m not late, I’m alive [Bridge] Married friends, new keys White flowers, old streets Everybody’s changing Everybody’s learning how to leave I used to think becoming Had to look like something grand But healing was a traffic jam And a phone inside my hand I didn’t lose my twenties I was under repair Not gone, not done Just hard to find in there Now the city looks cinematic Now the silence doesn’t bite I like me better when I’m awake I like me better in this light [Chorus] I’m not late, I’m alive I made it back to my own life I was offline, half-light Now I’m reading all the road signs I’m not behind, I’m in time Twenty-five is still a starting line All my life was story Now I’m writing it exact Catchy, relatable But my exact life story Look at that I’m not late, I’m alive [Hook] Fully, fully, fully online I’m on my own side I’m on my own time Fully, fully, fully online I’m on my own side I’m on my own time I’m not late, I’m alive I’m not late, I’m alive