Year Eleven Weather

[Verse] Grey polo, red sleeves Green walls, blue tables Calculator on the paper Trying hard to look stable Year eleven weather Humid after school Everybody laughing somewhere I was learning all the rules [Pre Chorus] I didn’t have the language yet But I had the feeling first How a room can get too loud How a smile can cover hurt [Chorus] I was fifteen with a camera Sixteen around the bend Running laps around the question Will I ever fit in again I was young but I was watching Every face and every door Year eleven weather I was already more [Verse] I loved the shuttle flying Even when it missed my hand Badminton in the echo Still trying to understand How to move inside a body How to laugh when I was wrong How to keep returning To the things I wasn’t good at long [Pre Chorus] And maybe that was courage Not the winning, just the stay Showing up to something That embarrassed me anyway [Chorus] I was fifteen with a camera Sixteen around the bend Running laps around the question Will I ever fit in again I was young but I was watching Every face and every door Year eleven weather I was already more [Bridge] I didn’t know the future Would call this pattern names I didn’t know the doctor Would return in another frame Back then I only asked him What the mind could do Nine years later I would sit there And say, “I think I need help too” [Chorus] I was fifteen with a camera Sixteen around the bend Not a broken little person Just a story with loose ends I was young but I was watching And I’m kinder than before Year eleven weather I was already more [Outro] Grey polo, green wall Old hall, new name I was still becoming I was not to blame